Wednesday, August 23, 2006

psycopathic peng

oh man im so tired!!! went abit mad today cos i had nothing to do and yah i really hate that, and i guess i was just being grumpy so i was like qt bad company haha. sorry to mike bry enming and chiara (esp you) for being such a grump. was trying to overcome my restlessness by drawing randomly on my note pad but i got scolded by enming for making too much noise so i stomped arnd the lib for a while and den went for a walk arnd science haha. found the tiny little mathematics dept and ended up at a wierd carpark i didnt know existed but well yeah dunno la. after tt i went to read this book called 'a mask of sanity' or something liddat cos i felt it fitted my mood...was abt psychopaths! so interesting haha. but yah u noe, psychopathic diseases are more common than u think! and they can be totally normal too! so scary la.

hmm anyway im sure tml will be a better day! the rest of the week i kinda cleared it so i can rest cos if i dun rest i think ill die... haven been home like before 10 for almost 2 weeks? not counting weekends and its really taking its toll on me cos im super homey and i need my rest else im a dead and grumpy girl like today haha. and i guess it takes alot of grump for it to show the way it did today so unless i wanna become a psychopath, i shld rest lots for the rest of the week! feel abit bad cos i had to pangseh marcuschin tho... sorry dude i promise ill meet up with ya soon!rock on :)

hmm anyway i realised its really much better to be a guy cos i think tt if i were a guy ill be a pretty good one, like much more normal than i am now... not tt i like girls la but yah haha. other than the liking girls part if i werent christian i might be a butch or something maybe haha. yeah cos i realised i feel more comfortable arnd guys and like jac said, sometimes im more guy than guys are haha. and i guess i see relationships in the same way and stuff too so yeahhh. hiahz oh well God had a future in mind for me when He created me and no amt of me wishing would make me into a guy, so i shld just be happy with what i have, and i guess i mostly am, just on days like this i feel like whining la haha.

hmm anyway im finally swimming tml! qt happy at the thot i guess, haven swum in ages! really kinda miss it too man so yeah... anyway tml is the first time im taking cab to sch! so interesting haha hope im not late man. tho im like late everyday anyway... anyway i think this whole dresing up to go sch thing is overrated cos ive been dressing up for like 1.5 weeks alr and im going mad... like so uncomfortable i guess haha. dunno la im wierd i guess :p chris was like so shocked when i told her tt today cos she says dressing up for sch is fun, but i guess once in a while is ok but i really cant take it everyday haha. im chao lousy la... din even last 2 weeks lor :p too bad!